Thu, 15 Jan 2009 03:45:42 GMT

my walls are empty. everything I'm taking with me is in the corner of the room just waiting.
I CANNOT WAIT TO LEAVE!

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 09:22:18 GMT

I think I'm going to use my other journal for everything & dump the 365project for now.
I have a tendency to change journals & things like that when I'm transitioning and changing myself.
And I'm at a really vital point in my life right now I guess.
So, if you want to continue on my crazy journal crawl let me know & i'll add you on my new one, i guess.

Friends Only;;

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 01:01:29 GMT

Friends Only
Random thoughts // Attempts on Creativity // Teenage Angst
If you know me - or want to - leave a comment
& I'll most likely add you.

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Wed, 10 Dec 2008 06:34:55 GMT

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. ~~At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you...~~ i'm not tagging people, but you can do it if you want to. :)

1. I second guess almost everything I do.

2. I love to sit and watch people.

3. Whenever I pass an attractive male, for a split second I think about what our lives would be like together.
When they walk past me and the moment is gone, I miss them.

4. I hate myself for not putting enough effort into my school work, but I'm too unmotivated to change my ways.

5. I want to travel all over the country and have a million adventures.

6. I'm jealous of everyone who can draw.

7.I have so many thoughts and words and ideas floating around in my head. I just cannot find any solid way of expressing them. I wish people didn't think I was so dumb.

8. Sometimes I walk extra slow just to have another minute or two to take everything about my surroundings in

9. I stopped liking half the people I know a long time ago - now I just pretend.

10. I'm afraid of so much

11. I love my mother more than she'll ever know but I feel like its too late to tell her because I've been such an awful daughter & she wont find it sincere. Sorry Mom, I'm just not a morning person.

12. I hate overconfident girls and boys.

13. I've bit my nails so far down that I cannot open creamer packets in the dining hall and my fingers hurt constantly. But I cannot stop biting them.

14. Before I fall asleep every night I fantasize about my future. Sometimes I fall asleep to thinking about what my life would be like if so-and-so and I fell madly in love.

15. I instantly fall in love with any boy who listens to good music and wears semi-tight pants.

16. All I want is real conversation prompted by someone else. I just want someone to ask me how I am and really want to know the answer.

a change in the key feels like the change in the seasons

Friends Only;;

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